1. I'm that weird kid who never talks to anyone in class. You know when the teacher says, "Go find a group." And there's always one kid who just keeps their head down and waits until no one's noticed that they don't have a group and works alone? That's me. Most of the time I don't even switch to grade papers with anyone because the thought of talking to someone I'm not close with makes me so uncomfortable.
2. I hate meeting new people simply because I've met too many. Everyone intimidates me.
3. I am intensely awkward.
4. I know exactly who I am, and I hate it.
5. If we were at any point, friends, I will always be able to recall your full name.
6. Don't lie to me. I will never lie to you.
7. When I'm upset, don't try to cheer me up. Hold my hand, play with my hair, hug me. That will do me more good than anything.
8. I told my mother for years that I thought she should divorce my dad. It's happening now, and it still hurts me.
9. My lack of following through on my ambition terrifies me.
10. My family has a history of divorce and failed relationships. This hasn't scared me away from them, and I'm not sure why.
11. I went to church for the first time in months yesterday. I cried. A lot. Around complete strangers, by myself. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I told only my mother and one of my friends. Sorry if I screened your call and didn't text you back.
12. I constantly worry that no one will ever fall in love with me because when it comes to flirting or being considered for a girlfriend, I seem to be very bad at it.
13. I didn't start acting until 9th grade. I didn't take it seriously until 10th.
14. I've always wanted to take singing lessons, piano lessons, and karate lessons. The reason I never did was because my family couldn't afford it.
15. I like my mom's side of the family more than my dads.
16. I hate gatorade. All kinds.
17. I bought red headphones a couple weeks ago because they reminded me of when red was my favorite color. It was my favorite color because a boy named Tanner Fraughton used to wear a red shirt.
18. I miss the tree in my front yard. I used to sit in it and draw.
19. I'm a terrible artist. I've never been able to keep up with all my artist friends.
20. I often stay quiet during classroom debates because even if I'm fairly certain I'm right, I don't want to be wrong.
21. I'm a lot more like my mother than I care to admit. I love her dearly.... but I never want to become her. Her trials are far too much for me to ever bear. That scares me. A lot.
22. I don't often say I love you. Those words are special to me and I find it difficult to make them leave my throat.
