"It will be better this way. You will feel freedom and happiness."

This doesn't feel like happiness. It feels artificial. 

"But aren't you happier?"

... yes.

"Then let it be."

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I have known darkness.

I have known light.

I have known grey and colors and seen the sun set and the moon rise and waited on a ledge for it to happen again.

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Jump.

Live.

Jumping means living because I won't fall.