"It will be better this way. You will feel freedom and happiness."

This doesn't feel like happiness. It feels artificial. 

"But aren't you happier?"

... yes.

"Then let it be."

--

I have known darkness.

I have known light.

I have known grey and colors and seen the sun set and the moon rise and waited on a ledge for it to happen again.

--

Jump.

Live.

Jumping means living because I won't fall.

How many

have I killed?

-------------------------

Death is relative 

and I've killed 

hundreds.

When I glance 

back at all 

the bodies 

I've left 

behind in my 

wake of devestation 

I cry 

Because all 

these corpses 

belong to me

And though I may

forget

names

I will never forget

The faces

Of those I murdered

and the only words

I murmur:

"You are dead to me"